Can't I have warm Turkey?

I hate quitting anything cold turkey, but I have. A couple of weeks ago I deleted Adventure Guy from my facebook and I deleted his number. 

And it sucks.

Or at least it did suck a whole lot.  Not so much anymore.  I guess I’m just getting used to it.

Either way I’m free!  hahahaha

This doesn't have anything to do with AG other than maybe it reminds me of my own crazyness when I get around a cute guy  : )  Plus I love Cage the Elephant.  Actually I just like watching Matthew Shultz dance

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=S0tsm0EhCJM

or whatever it is he's doing.

Run Away Bride!

Junie is married!!!!

That really shouldn’t come as a surprise.  They finally announced their secret engagement about a month ago and started talking about having their wedding in March.  That all went down the drain last Friday when she and Stan called a preacher and eloped.  And true to their bizarre style Mr.  & Mrs. Hobo didn’t tell anyone of their plans, not even her parents who at least live in town.   

So the craziness begins. 

I do have to admit that at least Stan now has a job as a trucker.  Not the most glamorous job but it might keep their marriage together.  He won’t be at home much so maybe she will continue being oblivious to his rudeness. 

Either way I am going to congratulate them and wish them the best.

On a side note Stan has an absolutely horrible last name.  I won’t mention it but let’s just say that a very disgusting bug shares the same name….and it might rhyme with coach.  I don’t care how much I love the man I marry there are certain names I will NEVER change my last name too.  If I were Junie I would be keeping my maiden name. 

Yay wedding video!:
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=_qFg5wH3wSg

I might do that at my wedding!

Ain't No Rest For The Wicked

Confession time.  

I have fallen off the wagon.  And shortly after falling off the wagon I decided to jump over the side of the common sense boat. 

On Wednesday of last week……I talked to Adventure Guy.   And I’ve been facebook stalking him again.   It’s sad I know.

I don’t think I even have any feelings for him.  Like at all.  Somehow I’ve been hypnotized and I can’t stop.  It’s like a slow motion bike wreck that you just can’t turn away from (it’s not even as interesting as a train wreck). 

 Back to the conversation I had with Adventure Guy.  I’m not going to go into detail, but let’s say that I was sufficiently witty and he was acceptably funny.  It really wasn’t that big of a deal and yet I want to text him right now. 

What is up with that? I don’t know.  I'm sure I'll figure it out eventually though. 

Otherwise life is going pretty good right now.  There are only two weeks left in the semester and I’m Soooo ready for break that it is not even funny.  And on the advice of Autumn I am formulating a plan on how to make my life more adventury without the help of a guy.  So coming soon to a computer near you will be my very own version of a Bucket list!  It will be filled with my own personal goals and so much adventure that you won’t believe that one person could possibly be that cool haha.  I am determined that if I write it down I will do it before I kick the Bucket!

In the meantime it’s Friday and here is a video from one of my favorite shows.  Ladies and Gentlemen it is my pleasure to present Jensen Ackles and Eye of the Tiger!

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=Cb3G5Qj_Lo8

I love Jensen and one day I will do this:

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=eVsoB3qKQLM&feature=endscreen&NR=1

I’m not sure if I’m going to add it to my Bucket list or not….   : )

And I almost forgot here's the song that my title comes from (I LOVE this song!):

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=HKtsdZs9LJo&ob=av2e

Like A Virgin

So if you couldn’t tell by my title, I’m going to be talking about virgins.  Actually I'm just going to talk about one virgin.  Me.  Yes I am a virgin (you would know that if you read my bio ; D).

Now before I really get into it, I feel like I need to do some embarrassing truth telling. 

I’ve never been kissed. 

That is how much of a virgin I am.  I mean the closest thing I’ve seen to a guy’s junk are those diagrams they show you in middle school health class.  You know the one’s I’m talking about.  The kind of diagram that was the closest you could get to being a picture of a stick man, while still being able to be called a diagram (and I’m using the word diagram very loosely).

So how is it that a woman in her early twenties hasn’t even had her first kiss yet?  I have no freaking clue!  For goodness sakes I should have accidently kissed a guy by now. For now I guess I’ll just have to chalk it up to pure and unadulterated talent.

You’re probably asking what my point is (other than giving y’all waaaay too much personal information lol).

Well, being a virgin who thinks about sex more often than many teenage boys do, I really want to know how guys react when they find out a girl is a virgin.  Because at some point I’m going to have to saying something about it to a guy.

So while talking to my friend Autumn the other day she told me that she had encountered a couple of different reactions when she told guys.

v  Some like to emphasis how gentle they’ll be.

v  Some see it as a challenge.  “As in hey I bet I’m the one who can get in your pants”.

And to be honest I’m not sure I really like either of those reactions, or I guess I shouldn’t like either of those reactions. 

While I would appreciate some gentility my first time, since I’ve been told it hurts for girls.  As soon as that’s over with and I’m more comfortable I would like to move on to something else….like crazy animal sex.  Yeah I said it.  That’s why, I’m sure, I’m turned on by that second reaction.  I mean the idea of being pursued is sexy.  But like Autumn pointed out guys who think of your virginity that way are just players and should be avoided.  And I know she’s right.  Dang it. 

So now I have a question for you ladies.  How have guys, or a guy, reacted when you told them you were virgin?  And for any of my male readers, what is your reaction when a girl tells you she’s a virgin?

And if y’all don’t get the reference in my title here is the video to Madonna’s song Like A Virgin:

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=VgkOCJ9PGkk&ob=av2n

I actually hate this song it’s just an awesome reference haha

Stalkers Anonymous

Hello my name is Izzy and I have a problem.  I am a facebook creeper.

Ok so I know I’m all Mr. Right and everything, but I have a serious thing for pretty boy players.  Right now I’m still focused on Adventure Guy.  I have however stopped visiting his FB page cold turkey.  I’m only allowing myself to look at things of his that pop up on my news feed.  Absolutely no going to his actual page.

I mean it’s absolutely ridiculous that I’m so interested in some guy who I really don’t even know that well and who is clearly a player.  Why is it that my sensible side completely flies out the window when these guys are around?!?  I mean seriously I know better!  And yet I search for any sign of him on my news feed.

So why do I do this?  Well I actually didn’t figure that out until recently.  It turns out that while my brain is telling me I’m pretty, my internal self still has a confidence problem.  So I’m attracted to these guys because I think if they want to date me then I must be pretty. 

Yes that is a very stupid thought.  Plus I was recently informed by a good friend that Adventure Guy is actually not very attractive.  And yet I would probably say yes almost immediately if he asked me out.  This is no bueno.  

So I am going to treat this like an addiction.

Step one: admit you have a problem.  Done

Step two: discover the cause of this problem.  Done

Step three: accept that you can fix this problem (with help of course).  Not so much  

And I’m not sure where to go from there.  I understand why I think this way, so I should be able to stop it.  So why is it that every time I see a comment from Adventure Guy on a girl’s page, picture, or whatever I get mad at him?  Once again this is definitely not bueno.  And I totally realize how crazy I sound.  But what can a girl do?

I guess I’ll just do The Creep!  Haha

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=tLPZmPaHme0

Mr. Right Not Mr. Right Now

I have a dream.......No really ladies I did have a dream and it involved a guy.  And I'm not talking about the kind of dream I'm sure you’re thinking of (even though I would welcome that kind).  The only part of this dream I remember is that I was being held by a man who I knew without a shadow of a doubt loved me unconditionally.  And I loved him more than anything else in the world.

Now I know this was just a dream but that doesn’t mean it can’t be a reality.  What Junie has never realized is that being in a relationship is not just about being ‘in love’.  Yeah love is a gosh darn important part of a lasting relationship but it’s not the only component.  A good relationship is an equal partnership between two people.  And that’s a concept Junie still doesn’t get.

I am an intelligent, attractive, moderately physically fit, funny, sarcastic, amazing woman who is fyi a good cook too boot.  And because I am all of these things I deserve a man who is also intelligent, attractive, funny, sarcastic, and just an all-around amazing man.  Now I’ve explained the same thing to Junie a hundred times but because she doesn’t see those qualities in herself she does not look for them in a man.

And ladies that is a mistake!  A relationship is not and should never be a dictatorship!  And that goes for you too men.   Whenever you’re thinking about dating a guy or are already dating a guy, try to remember what kind of guy you deserve.  

And as fun as Britney makes them seem let's stay way from the Criminals as well!  ; )

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=ywAordXWNzI&feature=related

Lost in Hobo Land

Ok Ladies let’s talk about what we don’t want in a man. 

I currently have a friend, we'll call her Junie, who’s engaged to Stan the Hobo Man.  I might add that this engagement is “secret” as in they haven’t told anyone about it because he’s a very “private” guy. 

You’re probably thinking why do I call Stan ‘the hobo man’?  Well there are several reasons.  The first one being that after only two months of dating my friend he moved in with her and her family.  Now that’s in its self might does not seem like a big deal,  but he hasn’t had a job since moving in with them…..roughly nine months ago!  Plus she has been the one paying for all of his nice new hobo stuff. 

I might also mention that Stan is also excessively ummmm “honest” and an insufferable know it all.  Let me explain what I mean by honest.  One day junie is talking about how she had gained all this weight and how she really needed to go to the gym; but she just didn’t seem to have the time (btw she hadn’t gained any weight).   Stan responds with “well if it’s not this excuse than it’ll be another one”.  Can you believe that?!?  And he has a habit of making similar degrading comments like that all the time.  By the way Stan won’t even pay for a professional hair cut so he pretty much always looks rough all the time (and not the sexy kind of rough).

Now I hope you are all asking “What the Hell is she thinking?!?” and if you aren’t you should be.  What she is thinking is that she isn’t good enough.  Juniehas no confidence in herself.  Outwardly she is all confidence, but privately she thinks that this is the only kind of guy who will ever love her.  So now what I want y’all to understand is that we ALL deserve someone better than Stan.  I’ll let you in on my idea of Mr. Right in my next blog.

But ladies please don’t undermine your own value.  I know I’m a good woman and I deserve a good man to spend my life with.  You should know that too.  And please, please, PLEASE don’t get lost in your own Hobo land.

If you start to doubt yourself just remember this: http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=wyx6JDQCslE&ob=av2e

*Names have been changed to protect the innocent.  And I’m sorry about some of the inappropriate content of the video  : )

Smile Like You Mean It!

I’ll admit that I’ve been in a bit of a funk recently.   But as I was scrolling through facebook a minute ago I saw this post one of my friends made:

The Pursuit of Happiness: 15 Lessons to Keep in Mind

1. The only person that can ever truly make you happy is yourself. Stop depending on everyone else.

2. People lie, stuff happens. Don’t take it too personally.

3. Want people to think you’re amazing? Start believing you are, and then they will too.

4. Smiling is the ultimate anti-depressant. Smile and laugh out loud, it doesn’t look stupid, I promise.

5. The world is never just black and white, right or wrong, one way or another. Try and see things from as many points of view as possible.

6. "Let everything happen to you

Beauty and terror

Just keep going

No feeling is final"

— Rainer Maria Rilke

7. Have empathy.

8. Gossip, problems of the past, events you cannot control, negative thoughts and negative people; time spent on these is time poorly wasted.

9. When you're jealous or find yourself filled with hate for someone/something, stop. The only person its hurting is you.

10. Although the newest, most expensive material things may make you feel as if you’re a better person, they won’t hold you at night or listen to you when you need it. Make sure your priorities make sense.

11. Step outside your comfort zone- it’s when you’ll really feel alive.

12. Don’t be afraid to be yourself, the people who really matter, don’t mind

13. Let your emotions out sometimes, humans have them for a reason.

14. Celebrate the things you have. Think only positively of the things you don’t (but would like to have) and they too will come.

15. Love unconditionally ♥.

It made me stop and think about some things.  Like how I shouldn’t be irritated with Mr. Adventure because of his lack of interest in me.  He’s a player and frankly I haven’t given him any reason to try and get to know me better.  And that I shouldn’t let a guy’s (for that matter any guy’s) opinion of me determine how I act or feel about myself.  I know that I can stand without a man and be awesome all by myself.  It’s just that sometimes I need to be reminded of that. 

Oh and to add to that list don’t just smile try to find humor every day in your life.  Try looking, and I mean really looking, at the world around you.  You’ll be surprised at what you’ll see and all of the amazing things you never noticed.

I’m going to leave y’all with one of my favorite Supernatural blooper clips.  I am a fan of the show and nothing makes me smile like Jensen and Jared!   : )


http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=4QNWZD-J-2s&feature=related

Beginnings

I wasn’t sure how I would start this blog but I finally decided to start from the semi-beginning.

I have pretty much always been shy.   But recently I’ve forced myself to get better.  I’ve started making friends with a certain amount of ease and for a while I thought I was cured from this almost incapacitating shyness.

Until I met this guy.  We’re just going to call him Chris (aka Mr. Adventure).

Now along with my usual shyness I’ve always had this Rajeshish habit when I’m around guys.  And if you don’t watch Big Bang Theory then here is a clip: http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=p9vVE3d3Dls&feature=related.

Basically Raj is unable to talk when he’s around women.  (I hope that’s what you got from the video).  Well in my world I just become a mute idiot.  I avoid eye contact and when I am actually able to say something it’s usually in one to two word sentences.  And if I say thing more than a couple of words I end up regretting it and hitting myself on the forehead later saying “Stupid! Stupid!”

And this is absolutely ridiculous!  I am an intelligent woman!  And yet when I get around this guy I somehow revert to this idiot teenager who fidgets like crazy. 

I mean I had a slight panic attack when I figured out that I was attracted to this guy.  How flipping crazy is that!  I am Miss. cool as a cucumber in every kind of situation.  Except when it comes to guys.

So why the almost panic attack?  Well all year I have been talking to guys with an unusual amount of ease.  And needless to say I’ve been of cloud nine about my progress.  But in looking back at all of those guys I started to see a pattern.  I wasn’t attracted to any of them.  And figuring out that I’m still an idiot around cute guys is what caused the near panic attack.

This is going to put a big dent in any plans I had for dating this year.